Mom’s book, let’s continue

Houston /

I am on a mission /

Not the mission into Space

/

I am on a harder mission /

Longer mission — into Earth

Houston /

When I see this Earth /

I want fireworks and diamonds /

But instead it’s a wake

of ships falling,

Houston /

We are all in this /

We have dreams of Outer Space /

But this mission is the toughest /

Our mission /

Into Earth

I became more of a thinker and a capturer of reality — still poetic reality, still with beautiful things. Even taking my dog for a walk was poetry.

Fern and roses /

Nice lady gives me three avocados /

through the fence /

One ripe, two are not /

she says /

Now Christmas lights /

everywhere /

Ornaments on trees


Pretend - snow /

covering a ceramic /

little house


In the window /

plastic icicles, mirror, /

my Mom

calls from San Fran / -

it’s freezing cold /

down here she says


Not here — I say /

not in L.A.

~ ~ ~

I press a button in the shape of a triangle, pointing to the right. And she’s here. She’s talking to me.

Painter doesn’t have to use a brain. Painter is someone who uses, like, intuition. A painter can paint a disaster and find a logic in the disaster, which is not what the brain would be telling you. And so, is a writer a thinker? I think a writer is… a thinker who is using mostly observation. Is that interesting? I think it is. …

  • And a painter is more thinking with instinct?

Like intuition. A thinker is using logic. A painter is using intuition. And a writer is using observation. They’re all thinkers, using different tools.

  • So you think there is less intuition in a writer and more in a painter?

No no, it could be all of it. It could be a little bit of everything.

  • Do you think your intuitions were mostly right? Or were they wrong? If a painter is a thinker with intuition.

I think it’s a very… abstract terms. It’s very non-defined, completely. Not black and white, that’s why it’s difficult to explain. Very often I had no intuition. I’m struggling for logic. And I’m struggling for intuition. Your intuition is huge. My intuition was – I mean right now my intuition is much better, with years. With time. My intuition gets better. Your intuition was from day one great and I don’t know how you do it. … So, what else is there? For example, a dancer. A dancer is not a thinker —

  • I think a dancer is an athlete sprinkled with art.

— Mm-hmm! I think a dancer is a great mimic of things. Of living things. Like when a dancer is dancing you see birds, you see animals. To me, you see animals. I think a dancer is, is… I think a dancer is actually celebrating creation. A musician is celebrating logic, because a musician has to have – there is so much math in music, more than in any other area of art. …

  • Babcia always says she thinks music is the greatest art, the top.

Yes, because I think it just — we have a right and left brain, and with music, music is a perfect balance of right and left brain. You have to be very precise. Mathematically precise and incredibly intuitive.

~ ~ ~

… or visiting my son and his girlfriend in the Marina …

It’s a quiet Christmas Day /

Down in Marina del Rey /

Fog horn is the only sound /

Robes holding angels /

Ready to fly /

on a yacht like this /

I could die /

Josh in his flannel PJ’s. /

But he looks good anyways /

April in black winter coat /

Will never go back to New York /

It’s hard to tell what to wear /

Down in Marina Del Rey /

Don’t think that life is unfair /

Having a chance to be here /

Oh, what a fabulous air

I realized that I was writing about Los Angeles, so I continued: 30 poems within maybe 3 weeks

Silver Dust

Long ago and very far

I was standing

With the star on my forehead

Made of paper

The city of my dreams

Came later

Long ago a box I held in my hand

Said hallo to a silver dust dancing

Today in LA, dreams are like silver glitter

And my heart filled with hope is bursting


Painting and poems by Anna Gajewska.

Conversation from August 10, 2023.

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